Senior Picnic.

Today was the Senior Picnic or "Senior Ditch Day". The latter is ironic because I had to get a permission slip signed by all my teachers in order to attend the "ditch" day. I'm pretty sure that for a day to be qualified as ditched one must actually not show up in class when one is expected to be there. But whatever, it was totally fun, though cloudy. It was rather chilly as well, but not so much that it was cold, but it was windy.

I graduate in 3 school days and 6 actual calendar days. I'm exhilarated and scared pants-less out of my mind. I'm going to be done with high school in a matter of days! I remember when I was a freshman and I thought, "I'm going to be done with this place in 4 years." And those 4 years just BLEW by. I can't think of where the time went. Seriously, it just disappeared. If I would have realized how I'd feel about it then I would have experienced more things and pursued relationships with all sorts of people and I guess I still have lots of time to do that, but it doesn't feel like it. It feels like I'm already basically done with my life. For 4 years, all I've had to think about was high school and now its done. What am I going to do with the freedom I'll have in college? Will I make decisions based on how they'll affect me or the world and people around me? I hope its the second choice personally. 

I'll write more later.