Graduation!!!

Tonight/this morning was graduation and it was amazing. The valedictorian speeches, the teacher of the year, Mrs. Marsters, speech and the wave of realization that hit me when my senior class of 2008 threw their caps in the air...that was magic. It had the ring of finality and a glimmer of the hope I have for my life from this point on. Sure it was sad, sure I cried, but I also embraced the uncertainty of life because if you won't/don't do that, then what's the point in living?

Obviously I passed Photo, though I don't know how. I'd like to thank Mr. Wallick for that. And to Mr. Ellison, oh wonderful english teacher of mine, thank you for being the most loving and adoring fan of mine. To Mrs. Marsters, that groovy anatomy teacher, thank you for being the spunky, scatter-brained caring woman that you are and you were by far my favorite teacher ever (for the exception of Mr. Jensen. You guys are totally tied.). Anywho, I made it! I graduated high school like everyone knew I would. There is no super-seniorism for me. I thank Him for that. 

Grad night was also amazing, so much better than I thought. There were a million things to do, the food was good, and tons of people showed up. There was rock climbing, magic tricks, an obstacle course, swimming, dancing, and gambling (school appropriate of course). 

I just wanted everyone to know that I graduated! Have a great morning. See you all in 10 hours.

I like to watch Anthony Bourdain: No Reservations because he travels all over the world, experiencing different cultures and their foods while meeting awesome people who really embrace their heritage, in a way that I wish I did/could.

I'm graduating on Thursday and I'm so excited. I can't wait to have the summer stretched out before me, just waiting to offer me awesome situations and opportunities to meet new people and maybe make a difference in some minute way in someone's life. Two months off and I'm looking forward to it.

Senior Picnic.

Today was the Senior Picnic or "Senior Ditch Day". The latter is ironic because I had to get a permission slip signed by all my teachers in order to attend the "ditch" day. I'm pretty sure that for a day to be qualified as ditched one must actually not show up in class when one is expected to be there. But whatever, it was totally fun, though cloudy. It was rather chilly as well, but not so much that it was cold, but it was windy.

I graduate in 3 school days and 6 actual calendar days. I'm exhilarated and scared pants-less out of my mind. I'm going to be done with high school in a matter of days! I remember when I was a freshman and I thought, "I'm going to be done with this place in 4 years." And those 4 years just BLEW by. I can't think of where the time went. Seriously, it just disappeared. If I would have realized how I'd feel about it then I would have experienced more things and pursued relationships with all sorts of people and I guess I still have lots of time to do that, but it doesn't feel like it. It feels like I'm already basically done with my life. For 4 years, all I've had to think about was high school and now its done. What am I going to do with the freedom I'll have in college? Will I make decisions based on how they'll affect me or the world and people around me? I hope its the second choice personally. 

I'll write more later.

SENIOR PROJECTS ARE DONE!!!

Mother Mary and Jehosphat! I'm so stinkin' excited. Tomorrow is the Senior Picnic and today was Senior Project presentations. I'm just so happy that its over and done with. Seriously, I've never been so relieved in my life. I feel like I am actually graduating in a week now. I can't wait to have the WHOLE summer before me and the freedom to come and go as I please. That is very exciting and rewarding. I can't wait to get some sun and soak up the friendship and fun while I can before everything is different and before I change to accompany the inevitable difference my life will take on.

Senior Project Presentations!

Tomorrow are Senior Project Presentations and I really just want to get them over and done with. They are the only stress I really have now anyways. I have a couple of finals, but they don't really matter and I have another week to study for them for the most part. I don't understand why Senior Projects are such a big deal. Yes, I learned oodles about time management and yes that will help me in the "real world", when I'm no longer in high school, but I could learn that lesson on my own and probably in a more efficient and practical way, but then again, thats just me talking. Anywho, thats pretty much what my night has been and will be about. Then I'll do my thing tomorrow and it'll be over and I'll be able to chillax and be myself again, without being uptight.

I put the Mo in Moses.

Hello there people of the internets. My life has been upside down and all sorts of crazy. 

I met this guy, DeeDee, and for the past two weeks he's been a constant in my life and now he's gone and its messing with my head. I want to pop over to J-Fizzle's house unexpectedly to see him, but I can't (see him that is) because he's going to Hawaii or Nebraska or somewhere tomorrow so he and J-Fizzle are down in SF right now living it up. He might be back though to work at my church, but you never know and I'd rather not get all excited because I always do that and then my expectations aren't met and I feel like a fool and I hurt my heart. I made him a card as a sort of goodbye and thanks kind of thing. I made an envelope to put the card in and I put one of my favorite crosses in it as well, for something to remember me by. I don't expect him to wear it, even if he just looks at it every once in a while and kind of remembers "that blonde girl that is friends with J-Fizzle" would be ok. And even though I've only known him for two weeks (give or take a day or two) I totally feel like I can trust him. I've always wanted to travel the world and he's rekindled the drive I need in which to actually do it. I'd love to go on a missions trip with him and a group. I think that'd be a lot of fun and helpful for me and discovering who I am more in detail and for the people I meet and ideally give hope to. 

My friends make fun of my because I like him. I don't see whats so funny though. He's older than me yes, but he isn't too mature or stuck up and I think he appreciates my personality, at least in part or the part he knows, which is nice. J-Fizzle always tells me that I deserve the best and I believe that I do. I don't know if DeeDee is the best but I know that I like him and he makes me happy and he's an all-around good sort of guy, which makes him good enough for me. I just hope he doesn't get the wrong idea from my goodbye present thing. It wasn't a proclamation of love or undying devotion or anything like that. It was just an "I appreciate you" kind of thing. I'm sure he understands that. I'll have to ask J-Fizzle about it at a later date, like tomorrow when he gets back.

Adios

Heather

Prom, The Actual Events and Expectations.

Prom was last night and I got home from Mitch's house at 1 this morning. The limo was cooler than I thought which was nice and the driver was super nice. His name was Chuck and I totally said the dumbest thing. We were like, "What's your name?" and he said that it was Chuck and right when he said that I said, "Can I call you Chuck?" Yeah, I took the night to a level of stupid never experienced til then. I guess I'm just a trendsetter. My parents were at Mitch's house til 11 that night. Isn't that crazy?! Apparently his parents and mine get along swimmingly which is good. Definitely good.

My mama and everyone else who was there totally took a million pictures of everyone. In Mitch's and my couple shot we threw gang signs. It was awesome. He looked so handsome in his suit. I would mind dating him. I wouldn't mind dating Dee either, but there's a bit of an age difference there. Not that I mind, don't think that. He's nice and cute and nice and sincere and he has like the best smile ever. And his glasses make him even cuter, which I don't usually think, but hey everyone can have an exception or two right? Right. Thanks for agreeing. 

So I went to church today for the first service because I told Liane that I wouldn't be there so she wasn't expecting me. It was nice to actually be able to go to a service for the first time in a long time. And I didn't have to go to the traditional one, even though I have to say that the first service is still more traditional than I thought it would be, but I don't mind. I got to see Mia and everyone was asking me how prom went. It was nice that they asked. J-Fizzle said that he prayed for me for prom, I though that was real cool. He's the best. Kudos bro. Any-who, I got to sit by Dee because he was sitting in the back pew and I didn't want to make it obvious that I was almost half an hour late. Go me. Whoop. It was cute because he didn't know how our service went so he was all hesitant and whatnot. But I heard that he was playing the guitar like a rockstar, sadly I missed it.