EvErYThInG iN mOdErAtIoN, iNcLuDiNg SeLf DeStRuCtIvE bEhAvIoRs AnD mInI mElTdOwNs CaUsEd By IrRaTiOnAl EmOtIoNs.

I have created the busiest week for myself ever.

I have a paper due on Wed that if I don't get it done and time stamped and put in my professor's box, she won't accept it. Then I have a research project with a partner thats due on Monday (next Mon) that my partner and I have to present in front of the class for at least 10 mins so I have to work on that with her Wednesday, Friday and Saturday. And then I have a 4-5 pages paper due in Anthropology on Dec 3 which I would like to have done by the 2nd. Apparently I just rock like that.

I have to go bring the trash can and recycling bin in from the street before they get stolen. I don't know who would steal those things, but apparently there are people who would because its happened before.

I apologize for my previous entry yesterday or the day before. I deleted it because its wasn't a true reflection of my day's events and it was derogatory and completely self-deprecating and not cool. I was angry and crying and confused and thinking of a million different things when I wrote it. I could think of a bunch of things that are wrong with me, but I'm going to take the challenge of focusing on the positive things that I have going for me. Like my sparkling personality. :)

Anyhoo, I'm sorry.

I'm kind of in love with House as in Hugh Laurie (a.k.a. Gregory House) and Mark Harmon (a.k.a. Jethro) from NCIS. They are beautiful specimen of mature men. Maybe I should like guys my own age, but lets face it, I don't. Sometimes it sucks.

Oh, I ran into Mike the other day at Butte. It was really weird. Morgan and I were just walking along to class from the parking lot and then all of a sudden Mike was just there and he was all like, "Hi there, whats up?" and I was all like, "Umm...nothing. Walking to class." He proceeded to poke fun at Morgan for not saying anything which I totally understood because she was having a "this is the guy Heather was like freaking in love with?!?!?!" kind of moment. And then she just said, "To each her own." Which I appreciated. I was doing so well too, I hadn't seen him in like a month and I had started not to think of him all the time, but now I feel like I'm fighting to not be back where I started from. For some reason, he's really hard for me not to like. I don't get it.

I'm tired. I need sleep for tomorrow because I have the math class I might fail if I'm not careful. Don't want to have to explain anything to my parents, that would suck.

Peace.

I Just Wish That I Could Heal The Hurt You Feel Tonight.

I figured out that my mom was just stressed that day when she went all psycho babble about nothing on me. So its all good now.

This weekend has been ok, nothing special actually. Pretty boring for a Halloween weekend. I helped out at the youth group halloween party and that was a lot of fun. There were more kids than I thought there would be and that was nice. We went trick-or-treating and Sam brought Tristan in his newly put together stroller. I got to push him most of the way...it was totally fun even though I had to keep Sam breathing at times because she thought something bad would happen, but fortunately nothing did. After we got back from trick-or-treating we watched Nightmare Before Christmas and I don't think Joshua liked it very much. But its alright. So that was Friday.

Saturday I had to be to the Veteran's Hall at like 9 am to help collect money at the door for a gun show that my dad's gun club was hosting. The power went out around 1:30 pm and people got kind of pissy, but it was understandable because they couldn't see nearly as well as they could before even with flashlights. Then at 4 or so mom and I cut out to go to Holiday to get something for dinner. Then I just hung out at home because it had rained a lot during the day and I didn't want to drive on the wet roads if I didn't have to.

Sunday I went to the 9 o'clock service for about 10 mins and then I ended up hanging out in the nursery with Liane because she's been snagging all my hours. Then I went to help at the show again and then I went to Candace's house because Melie was there and they were watching Saw IV and then we went to see Saw V which wasn't as scary as I thought it would be. Thank goodness because during the entire movie I had to pee. Then we dropped Melie home and we went back to Candace's house to hang out and I ended up staying there til 10 pm watching CSI and Cold Case for like 4 hours. We had Mountain Mike's pizza and it was delicious. Oh, Starshine's cat, Dody, totally like loves me now and keeps trying to bite me...but they're like, "Look at me and love me," bites. Not really hard and not meant to hurt. 

Anyhoo, I'm super tired and thats all I really had to say.

Night. Peace.