Blame Me! Blame Me! Blame Me! I love Anberlin.

I appear to have hit a rough patch in my life. It sucks and it hurts. I hurt mucho. I just learned something about two people that I didn't know and it confuses me because I didn't think it'd happen. I don't know how to feel about it. Its really messing me up.

Also, Morgan its like she was a few weeks ago. She's always tired, which before was normal, but now its ALL the time. She's never rested and almost never genuinely happy. I hate it and I don't know what to say to make it better. I just want her to be ok. 

So yesterday I ran across this table that had information about a study abroad program in Costa Rica. If I would have known about this earlier I would have totally been down. Its $3,800 for a 6 week stay. I would have a minor in Environment Peace Psychology I think....and that'd be awesome. So I'm thinking that if its happening next year that'd be great and I'll start saving now and if it doesn't I'll spend the money on something else that I need. Like my phone bill, food, shelter and all that kind of stuff. I'm trying to be more responsible and get my life together. I can't wait to move to the abbey and start making things happen. I don't know what I want to do, but I do know that I'm supposed to be helping there, it just feels right. And I'd like to just focus on me and my place in life right now, I'll work to keep food on the table, but I don't plan to pursue a serious career of any sort until I'm out of college so I'll work meaningless jobs until then to get experience and get some sort of idea about what exactly I want to do. 

I guess I don't really have anything else to say at the moment. You know I'll be back to write more though.