The Charmed One

Ok, so my last post was kind of mopey and silly teenager-with-a-problem-with-the-world kind of vibe. I apologize for that and I feel better today.

Soooooooo, on Wednesday I should be free of this cursed Mowers house. It'll be a good day for me. Also, I think I'll be going to the Eldorado Hills (wherever that is) for a thing. A roadshow of sorts, I think thats even in the title. I'm reading this book called Soul Graffiti and the guy who wrote it, Mark Scandrette, is going to be one of the speakers at the Roadshow thing. Thats so exciting, I mean I've already met him, but he's the most honest and nicest person that I've ever met and it doesn't seem like he has to try. It just like comes to him, like enlightenment. Its crazy.

I can't stop thinking about someone. He's like a really super nice person and he doesn't have to try. He's genuine and sweet and I don't know, still kind of young inside. I don't even know what it is about him. He drives me freaking crazy and its not fair. But whatever, its fine and I'm ok. Next subject.

I've realized that I really don't like television shows. I think they're lame and they focus on everything about society that is not what people should focus on. Money, fame, sex, violence, people building facades of perfection. I don't understand the fascination behind these programs. I mean, I'm not going to say that I don't watch tv, but I watch Food Network and Lost. You know fluff shows. I tell people that I like horror movies, but I really don't. They scare me, well they don't scare me, they just make me sad to see people being hurt for no reason other than because the bad guy wants to kill someone. I don't have a sense of justice like that. My sense of justice is a bad guy going to prison for a length of time and then hopefully having their life changed so they don't want to do bad things any more. I was watching Snatch and every time someone was hurt I was sad. I don't understand why people feel the need to hurt someone to make themselves feel better or more powerful.

Alright. I have to get my life together now so I'll go for now.