Thoughts and More Random Shite

I absolutely love Yael Naim. She has a great voice and you can tell that she has an accent, but it just makes the lyrics sound that much cooler. I like her song "New Soul." Sometimes thats how I feel. Like I traveled to a strange world to learn things that I don't know and I totally feel like I make every possible mistake known to man. I'm a G like that.

So Betty is gone for 3 and a half weeks and he's only been gone for a day and its already kind of killing me. I never realized how much I talk to him til today. I see him before school, at lunch, and afterschool and then we talk on AIM at night from the time he gets home from school or work til we go to bed. Its crazy and I think something must be done to try and control this because I'm not sure if its healthy to need someone this much. It kind of scares me. I also totally miss Stanton. I wrote him a note and asked him if he'd take my stuffed lobster and take pics with it in Germany so it'd be all world traveled. Then he texted me and asked why I wrote him a note and not Chris and that proved more complicated to answer than I thought. But I made it through and he (Stanton) understood. So I'm pretty sure they've landed and are all settled now which is totally cool. I happy that Stanton and Chris got to go and I'm sorry for Wes because he didn't get to go. Which totally blows, but he says its ok, but I'm not sure if I believe him or not.

I totally just realized that I graduate in like 3 months. I'm scared shitless to be honest. When I was a freshman I was so excited to be a senior and to be graduating, but now I'm just seriously freaked. What am I going to do with my life? What am I going to be? Where am I going to live? What college am I going to? Who out of my high school friends am I going to stay in contact with? Will the things that matter the world to me right now mean anything 10 years down the road?

School has me on the edge of reason fo shiz. All my teachers decided to make things due this week and give tests and whatnot. Its ridiculous. Its like they all had a staff meeting and decided what week would totally fock with the students the most. I think every teacher on the face of the earth secretly hates kids and makes it their personal mission to make their students miserable at some point during their academic career which is seriously focked up. Not cool teachers! Not cool at all. You sicken me.

I'm tired and I'm going to bed and I'm ignoring the rest of the homework I have so suck it Paradise High. I don't mind. Good night.